Zen, ccie and the art of home ownership

So.

This is my very first post ever....

This blog doesn't deal with the greatest of issues facing mankind. Basically it's about me and my need to talk more and to try to find myself a hobby. Sure I knit and spin and all that but lately my heart just isn't into these activities...or maybe it's because nobody thinks of yarn when it's 32C outside and the house needs fixin'.

Which brings me to talk about that. The house needs a new drain. We experienced some issues last week on (of all days) S's birthday. It was already a day chock full of emotions because we were seeing the doctor in the morning to figure out why our latest plan has been failing for the last year and a half, I was back from Vegas (weeee! Networkers!) and for once on S's birthday, I had just no plans whatsoever...

Basically the sanitary drain was all clogged with roots. Yay. So it had to be changed (today) but this led to the discovery that more roots are clogging the foundation's drain. Meaning that there will be lots of people working on our house to replace the drain and fix the issue. Let's hope there is nothing else (yes, I know, I am freaking out but this is my blog, I am allowed!)
I truely love my house, it is our house and I see myself growing old here with S and fill the two upstairs bedrooms with new inoccupants which share our DNA...but although we had planned our finances to be able to face such situations, I've been an emotional wreck for the past week.
I am very lucky to have S, he is a wonderfull hubby and always tries to reassure me that things will be fine...however he too had to deal with this and managing to work as a team has been trying for both of us. I also have the best of friends and although some (hello, T!) had to experience my freaked, panick-stricken side, I know their arms are always open (and so are their mobile phones) if I feel bad.

I just can't wait till all of this is behind us. I know it'll be lots of money but I really need to work on my CCIE R&S written retake. I failed with a score not too far from the passing mark in Vegas and I know I can do this if only I am at peace with myself, the world and our house.
Zen and CCIE exams tend not to go hand in hand, I hope I can learn from our house experience how to be calm enough to be able to pass.

Now some of you might wonder why my blog is titled "Have we assumed control".
One of S's favorite band (and now one of my faves as well) is Rush. At the end of 2112's Finale, Geddy Lee and Alex Lifeson end the album with "...we have assumed control..."
I do have control issues, and have just started seeing someone to help me deal with all of that. This blog will also deal with such issues, and the progress I make towards Zenitude.


So there. This ends the 1st post.

Let's see where this goes!


M.